The emptyness of the lonely girl

Alone in her bedroom she drinks a martini while she writes in her blog
this is her way to let things go
it's been 2 years since she had her last boyfriend
and as the time goes by she is feeling more lonely
it's like screaming in a crowd where everybody is dumb
nobody really listens to her
yeah, she has some friends, actually she has all the kind of friends
the ones that she can go out with and have a lot of fun
the ones that she can share her screts
the ones that she can do nothing at all and have some great time
the ones that she can talk about important things, like god and religions and stuff
the ones that she can be crazy without being judge
but sometimes she feels like one kind of friends is missing
the ones that can really listen to her and understand and do something or anything to help her
right now, she is the most lonely girl in the world
and it doesnt matter where she is
she is always gonna be lonely
cause it's like there's something missing in her life
thoguh she doesn't know what it is
she's been trying to find it all her life
but still.... nothing
there's one thing that is funny
she always get what she wants
cause she fight too hard to get everything better for her
but that's just not enough
right know she is planning moving to new york in 2010
maybe this will happen
maybe not
who knows
but she is planning... and usually when she plans something... it happens
although there's is one thing she has been planning all her life
but she can't make it happen... cause it's not up to her
she wants to find the love of her life... her prince charming... the man of her dreams
but i guess nothing is ever perfect
she has the right family, the right friends... she can't have the right boy
and sometimes i think she is gonna die trying to find that person
i just wish she could find him... anywhere... even if it is for one day... but she has to know that she found him
that would make everything easier
you know why? cause im that girl
and i just cant stand it anymore
i just need to love...